You just cant be love,without not getting hurt kan. No matter how much you avoid not getting hurt,you just cant. Because first, whatever that the other person(im gonna address the other person as he la ea haha) does or feels,it affects you too in some ways. If he feels sad,you feel sad too. If he worries about something,it bothers you too. If he does something you dont like,you hate it but at the same time,you feel like you dont have the right to deter him from doing whatever he wanna do because its their life anyway. You still need to respect what he wanna do with his life or wtv decisions he makes for his own good. You need to understand and tolerate. In that process,you will get hurt in some ways in order to take care of others' feeling.

Second,you expect too much from another person. You feel like you own him. His time,his commitment and his effort are just for you but guess what? NO. You need to understand he has something else to do too. He has other commitments too. You need to know that he has family and friends that he has to take care of too. He needs the time to play,study and some other stuffs than you. So,in that case,that means his time,his effort and his commitments are not only for you. Yes you're a priority. but youre not the only priority that he has and priority changes, You cant expect for him to always be there for you,(ofc,if he sayang you he'll make time but some times he can be unavailable too youknow),he cant meet you everytime you sad(bcs he's busy with some other shits other than you. you shittiest just in case you dk *talking to mirrior*) haha emo. So my point is,when you expect him to layan your over clingy-ness,when your expect him to meet you everyday,when you expect him to ws you first,when you expect him to call you every single day,when you expect hes gonna instastory you always or when you expect him to take pics of you secretly(lol) , youre gonna be hurt because you expect too much. What im tryna say is,be realistic and be moderate. Too much of anything can cause harm right? So yeah same goes to expectation.

And sometimes your effort and your spirit are not mutual with the another significant. Ahh..this hurts just too much haha. I cant handle this sometimes. It feels like you're the only one who excited over something or you're the only one planning dates you know. There will be times like that.


Love hurts kan? hahaha i dont even know why i involved myself into this kind of things but i guess when you love someone you will do anything for that person. You go crazy.You will prioritize them more in wtv condition or state you're in. That's how crazy love can be. But you know what,what is love without pain. You cant get rainbow without a little rain kan? When people said "no pain no gain",i said "no pain no love" haha


Just so you know as long as he makes the effort and always trying to make time for you,thats enough. At least he tries. And you try. It takes two to tango anyway. So, i just wanna say that im very grateful and thankful for him who always stay by my side. It ain't easy i know. I know i have said this so many times but guess what? IM GONNA SAY THIS AGAIN hahahha. Ok so,here it goes i appreciate your time and your effort despite of your busy schedule. And i appreciate your patience to layan my mood swings,bad mood,my pms la basically without complaining even a bit.Thanks hekhek #youknowwhoyouare . Just so you know,im tryna improve myself. Im gonna be more independent,more matured,more understandable and more patient(this the toughest lol) so that im not gonna burden you anymore even though you say im not a burden but i still feel im a burden haha so im doing this for myself and for my own good. So yeah basically its all bout me haha. Im progressing ok watch me grow,dude! :p (but i need you in this process so dont leave me ok? #stillnotgrow #imaninfant)